Hindsight is 20/20
About a couple of weeks ago I was preparing for a meeting. I’ve prepared for many meetings in my career yet this one was different. I was meeting with someone that I typically do not meet with on a regular basis. In my attempt to prepare for this meeting, I wrote down things I wanted to discuss and questions I wanted to ask. Given this meeting didn’t have a set agenda, my goal was to ensure the person was kept abreast of everything going on within the department. Until….
On the day of the meeting, I became anxious. I thought to myself, “why am I feeling this way?” I couldn’t make heads or tails of it. Yet I had this nervous feeling to the point that I wish I would have called in sick. When it was time for the scheduled call, the person on the other end and I exchanged greetings, then suddenly…BAM! A 30-minute rendition of my inability to communicate, how I keep everything in my head and should learn to write things down, and then being blamed for things of which I have/had no control. When the call was over, my head was spinning! I thought, “What happened?” “Where did this come from?” “Is what the person said true?” “Do I keep everything in my head and don’t write things down?” “Do I have an inability to communicate?” I started second guessing my performance and everything I knew to do regarding my work. At that moment, I lost confidence in myself.
Philippians 4:6-7 (NIV), “Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.”
One the day of the meeting, the Holy Spirit was telling me that I needed to pray. I was given the signs yet ignored them and succumbed to the feelings I was experiencing. I gave the person power and for a moment during the meeting, I was in bondage. Hindsight is 20/20.
Dear God, Your word says, “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest,” (Matthew 11:8; NIV). Lord, help us to remember that when our anxieties begin to manifest, Your peace will guard our hearts and minds and You will give us rest. Where we feel fear an anxiety, replace it with faith and strength. When anxiety becomes great within us, we ask that Your consolation bring us joy (Isaiah 41:10). Because You can keep us from stumbling and present us without fault (Jude 1:24), we ask that You take away our fears that threatened to overtake us and make us new again.
In Jesus Name